What's feeling?Exciting?Expecting?I ain't in that mood!But right now,I am thinking.Erm.....Just the feeling of wondering,I am no longer having holiday!

I thought of HIM

Cool things here,I thought of him.For the reason of why I am not missing him at the moment..now,and forever!I can't recall anything at all.Guess I am having a new life started,with mysterious people around me,cheering me up.I don't know who is that.GOD?Is just,I never thought of being so cool before.Abang Kev find me,and I crap a lot HUMAN philoshopy to him,that makes him changed his thought.Since when I become so mature?I didn't realise it.Being too optimistic right now,I told him we should think of things like future instead of love,at our age.And what I did said was,I took those as puppy love,although I love hard,doesn't mean I love right.I am not really in love.We didn't FAIL!WOW!!Is that true?I kinda agree it.And I can't imagine I am saying it.
I need no counsellor to advise me,hey,Kev woke me up once,and I don't feel like I am falling,didn't fell down at all.Am I trying to protect myself?No,it is the fact,I am not lying.Stop asking about how's the wound is,it is fully heal.

Here,stand up and walk again,we having a long way to run still.Don't give up dude!Is special for you.Empty in soul?I will be the soul fill-ter!Need strength?I offer mine.Need shoulder?You can lean on me.Need a hand?Hold me tight.This is what friend is for right brother?!!Chill chill!

Different stage!

When you are 12,you say:"shall I go with this guy?Haiya,just fooling around.I guess is okay."
When you are 14,you say:"Everyone has a boyfriend,I might have one."
When you are 16,you say:"I finally found my true love,I want to be with him for the rest of my life."
When you are 18,you say:"Why everyone is changing but not me?I am still sticking to the old me,the old town,and the old life!"
When you are 20,you say:"I need an exposure!"

With a so call "What a future!"You don't know your plan,don't know where you will settle down yourself.You wish you could be an ordinary person,or you wish to have an exposure life???Staying oversea?Away from your motherland?You love it?Or maybe you don't?

I wish I am an ordinary person when I have great memories to keep in this place.But now I wish I am not an ordinary person when something bad happens here.This is human,philosophy.
Definition of ordinary---What says you?

Why I keep proving to everyone that I am ok?

Unpredictable!

One day one post?Nah,it won't happen that rapidly after some times.Maybe now I am so emo huh?!?Just too much thing I kept inside should be hide it up!Where by another word of forgetting it.


I feeling ain't right about something,but I can't describe about it.Just weird,I hope dcm can tell me what am I thinking.She is always there telling me."Re-group" my thought before it comes "messy".Dreamt about a lot nonsense dream.I want to get rid of it.


Do you ever getting fed up on messaging people,but he/she didn't reply you?Is like you are trying to ask back the things belong to you,but he/she didn't respond on you.The big problem is,I don't even feeling to talk to this person,in my life.I swear~~I guess is this the first time I feel this way?If yes,that will be good.A sign of changing.Now is like a time i keep persuade myself,don't care about those "tipsy tipsy"things.Forget about it.I am doing it,just take it like,I lost it.Even the friend of mine,just asking a little help from her also so hard.She is no longer my friend.Won't place her in between anymore!


But I have another feeling of relief!!!That I did felt it last time,a i threw it away..But now coming back to me.I am glad!Thanks!To everyone,to kev,You being such a good friend for me to lay on.3Q-bb!!Haha!


Learn from mistake?!!??I thought of this Question,some one did asked me before.

Learned that I trust people so easily.Careen scolded me for that,sometimes can describe as so "naive".

Maybe I think not much.I don't try to judge everyone as a bad guy in the first place.I thought everyone is like this.Not good in protecting myself.I rather get hurt than I hurting people.For those I care.Sounds silly?

No rehaB!

"You try to bring me go to rehaB but i say no no no!"

No rehaB,cause I am okay!So cheap to ask back the perfume ?Nah,it doesn't suit him at all.Is too worthless to treat someone that good.We are enemy!!!Wakau,is so childish!Well,I am just doing too good,and nearly forgot what was happening last night,maybe from the beginning,I don't feel lost at all.

If you need to send me to rehabilitation,that will be the moment I am with someone and even losing my mind,but now,I am cool.Never better than now.

Ha!!!Someone is hiding something!People didn't show they are sad doesn't mean they are happie.Is true,cause this planet,there are a lot people like this,happy go lucky type.And others will just thought why these people have no things to worry about,everyday just smiling all the way,laughing all the time.In fact,these people cry every night under the blanket.For sake of,nobody knows about it!

I used to be like one of these people,my sister agreed.If I really crying in front of her,she will know it,I am so "hiding something" behind them.Problems all around me.But right now,I guess I won't want to be like these people.But I am born to be like this.When I laugh,I forget things.Is not something bad right?

But you have to know to control,or else,you are going to rehaB for unable to control your feeling,your emotion!-and JESUS said:"funny doesn't mean you must laugh!"-Funny not laughing what should we do?

Leann Chong!You are killing me with your cute smile,I love you!Muacks!

Sometimes i hate blogging!

I have no idea what kinda feeling am I having right now.I gave this guy a chance to hurt me!
Once broke up,all I do is just open up my lappy,deleting every post I wrote in the past few months,is all about him.can someone just tell me what I am now?
I started to hate him,is that what a breaking-up couple should behave?he is using me,too much,and he is not worth for me to treat him so well.I knew it too well!
No trust,no commitment,no contentment,no nothing from my listed post.That means no meaning to stay in the relationship.I will be good,I will promise!

The rush hour 3!

The rush hour 3!!
Is a review for this kinda comedy movie by Jacky Chan!Some one who he dreamt to be!-aL-
Supposingly I should have watch it yesterday,but I told the friend today tuesday will be the lady day,so cinema will be selling cheaper ticket for gurls.Manatau,tak jadi!I've made the mistake,Sue said is just only for TGV,not GSC.What a.....Nevermind,if I would have my student card,it gotta be cheap for the coming movie.
I guess this movie is just for laughing.Is not what meaningful or touching movie.But if you are asking me to write a review about it,I have nothing much to say.It is just funny.And I like the bold head lady."Geeneneniew"Arhh...I don't know how to spell it.Kesian some one gotta watch it alone in penang!But frankly,although I am watching with friends,I will feel like watching alone too.

Life isn't all about love

Don't misread me,I am not those who needs love that much.Yes,life isn't all about love,but with love,life can be more meaningful.Again,what love that I'm talking about isn't just between couple,is the love between family and friends too.

I am glad people will spend time reading my craps,once again thanks a lot.Just do drop some comment sometimes,let me know how you think about it.And,lust isn't just about sex of course,i do wrote about feeling of enjoyment didn't I?Not just about SEX dude!

But sometimes,people will take things from granted.First of all,I will be the one judging myself here.Taking family love from granted.But I still doing nothing.What's in my mind,maybe they are over-reacting about my behaviour.How can I tell them,I will be just fine?I don't know how to talk to them!

LOVE

Lo Lo Lo VE!!!Song from Simpson?What is this all about?For what i post today,is what inspiration i got it from the newspaper last night."you had me at hello...sigh".For sure is not copy writing,is just posting my thought!Sharing here!

"love",the one small word,stand for hodgepodge of feelings and drives: lust, romance, passion, attachment, commitment and contentment.---The Star says!Advertising this newspaper?Wakaka....Ok, The meaning of love,isn't clear enough right here?

Lust--Strong sexual desire,feeling of enjoyment.So what does this do with the love we meant??Sexual desire,one thing,enjoying the moment a couple spent together?Or maybe a mother and a daughter?

Romance--showing feelings of love in a very strong emotional way.I guess this has something to do with couples,how they use the romantic ways to show love to each other.How come i do not have it?Arhhh....sigh!

Passion--a very strong feeling about something,sexual desire or love??A friend of mine told me,:"you love him because of the feeling of love or you are just passionate about him?".It is doubt,I still can't differentiate what passion to link with love?And maybe it does not connected at all.What says you?

Attachment--to connect yourself with somebody else.Which means what ever things your Love's one facing,you should be right there by his/her side.Isn't what it meant?Your another you is your lover's one.Even though the family,the friends,everything.You have to be connected with.

Commitment--I have a deep passion it this.If someone just tell you,he won't put too much commitment in the relationship.Cause he kinda defensive,he just wanna protect himself from being hurt,is that call love anymore?Commitment between a relationship meant a lot,is a kind of promises you made,to support someone,even the family members here.

And last but not least,Contentment--a feeling of happiness or satisfaction.People,you must learn to appreciate things you have.Like the earlier post i wrote about satisfaction,is related.

I having a great enthusiasm to write about these.Review from my family right now,a mother,she has to go to Macau for a working trip,misses her cute little nine months old baby here,she was having a strong deep feeling before she departs to KLIA.Although is just a week time.But I have no idea how this baby behave if the mother isn't here.I don't really know that kind of feeling,but this mother tells me,when i become a baby's mama,I will know the feeling.Will it be like a husband misses his wife?Or a boyfriend misses his girlfriend?

Looking at the baby,I don't know how will she get use to it when the mummy isn't beside her when she is sleeping at night.She is so sick right now,mummy just left this morning,and she is getting sick.Hoping she will be fine,I don't wish to see her crying for mummy.Poor Leann!

Now,review from my side.--Her front brain is telling her he's trouble.He's never made a commitment,he starts to drink,he doesn't has a high hope in achivement.But in her middle brain won't listen,he's cute even he's ego.He's smart even he doesn't do much reading.He's neat even he didn't do any cleaning.No shaving!He's so bad when he's touching fag,he's still good.Are these same as man's thought?Give me some comment guys!!

HOW these process moving?First,sparks between two opposite sex human.Next comes the infatuation of romance-the chemistry is working out...a fast feeling.But it isn't about love?And people will stay on for months,after that?started to fight,to get the right you hold on for years.Fight back for your own pride.Following with?If both can't negotiate,next we come with breaking up.Right?I guess we have to learn how to talk,left behind the ego-ness you have,listen to people,start to think and figure out,are those reasons worth it for you to reconsider again.And stop saying break up which always happened between couples.Or stop hurting some one's heart like parents to daughter.Or vice-verse.

At the age of 20,it considers young aren't we?passion and hope are so strong that's it is almost impossible for you to fall in love,to stop loving someone.---says the star.I feel so right about this,is just the passion.The passionate love!The joyful part of your life with someone.You got it wrong when he just spend the time having fun with you,not be right by your side when you are having troubles.

Give some comment!

Commitment!!

Can some one clarify me what is commitment?If some one you love tells you,"I dare not put too much commitment on us",what does that suppose to be??Kinda hurt if you got that don't you feel so?At the age of 20,I guess I am a little too young to see what future I have,a bright one or I'll choose the dark side?All depend of how we judge things.How good if there is a machine here for us to view our future.Scientist,do your work!!Jajaja!
Learn not to commit to someone that is far away from you,where you can't see your future in the next ten years.Is a way to defend ownself isn't?

Satisfaction~~

Guys,here is the thing,do you ever complain about your life?The imperfection of your life,the things that do not satisfy you.The place you stay not really the way you want?The food you are eating is not the taste you want it to be?The school you attending isn't the scene you want?The guy sleeping beside you but you have no idea why you like him?Keep complaining,this is me!I will start complaining but i still having him beside me.Hate the things he did,but he is still the one I sharing secret with.Kinda weird?Do human really know what is the limit of satisfaction?Do these really satisfied them?
I appreciate those people who knows the level of satisfaction.I mean,is a way to find happiness isn't?Since you are not complaining much,you will stop to compare,stop thinking,why things are like that?Why things aren't like that??I like complaining,i don't why i will keep thinking things that should be but not the things that are already like that.I should learn how to accept things isn't?
The things i am not satisfied with,the guy I love,he has his weakness,so what?I still be with him for almost 5 years isn't?But in these years,i complained things non-stop.I feel unhappy.Not even a happie day after all....I hate myself for one thing,since I am not satisfy for this,why i can't let it go right?So right now,I learn to appreciate things i had.Everything,no more "complaination".Wakau,nice!!!New blog to share here?Ya,this will be the public one!!!!For you guys!This will be the one i write all about my life!My thinking,nothing private to share here
Daily routine?Fuyoh!!!Abby told me to wrote that,but,i will see how!i just wanna share some thought here!