Hey cutie....

Hey cutie....you really look cute. I wonder how you really look like.....the real you. OMG, since when I become like that? wow!

Don't ever think that you could change someone!

Don't over estimate yourself that you have the ability to change someone!
They are meant to be in their ways of living, therefore? UNCHANGEABLE!
Maybe I am too immature, as in, I thought what ever you promised, you will keep it.
But now seems like, you will be the last person in this world that I could ever trust !
This is the consequences of love? When you don't love, you will start to hate!?
I don't hate you, I am just disappointed. I guess, disappointment is worst than hatred?
I don't even feel like talking to you anymore, I don't even feel like seeing you hugging you nor kissing you.
Everyone has their limits, I guess I have already exceed mine.
Those hurting feelings were really bad, without you I don't feel down and upset.
With you I feel cheated and I am treated as a slave.
NICOLE! keep this in minD,
You suffer from leaving him now is better than you suffer if you marry him!
Life will get better without him, the sky is still bright and the sun will be always shining! I feel good!
MOVE ALONG!

With or without you, isn't the same?

I don't feel you anymore,

I don't see you anymore,

I don't love you anymore?

I don't feel that we are in relationship.

My problem?

This my brain, you can't do anything?

You don't see anything, cause you don't think there is anything?

I prefer single now, I don't want a boy friend now.

I wish I can just turn to you and say, good bye!

I hope I can just ignore you for my life,

I can't be your lovely gf anymore,

I can't be the right one for you anymore....

No more!!!!

Forgive me that I can't click with you!

Seriously can't tell you all about what I'm thinking! 

The more you ask, the more I feel hard to let things out!

I don't know why the relationship will become this way,

people can talk with their parents like friends, 

I don't!

People can tell them everything,

I won't!

WTF with I'm fatt lan za?

Ya!

Too bad that I throw the temper on you all.

Cause I don't know how to talk, 

I hate telling and explaining

I am tired of ensure-ing you all,

What am I doing,

Where am I!

Investigating me?

Damn you!!!!ShOooooOoo away!

Insane!

With or without you, isn't the same?

I can't believe that I shouted at you last night, I felt relief.

I complain too much? You had the point!

I like complaining, but no action to solve the problems. 

You don't like listening to me, because you feel fed up with all the problems around.

My sisters, you hate them.

However, they did nothing to you. You hate them still.

You don't want to listen to me. When I need someone beside, you are just not there for me.

Am I asking too much? I love you, I don't love your act. I like you, cause you know what you need and what you want.

If I'm the one that will fight for what I want, I will definitely can't be with you. 

Both of us will be stubborn head. 

You scolded me cause I waited you at your house without a car, scare that your impression will be bad if Keith's family saw it?

SELFISH!

I told you to fetch me home, I feel helpless! I want you to send me home, not others.

You said, sp should be the one who is responsible to send me home, but you are my bf.

Asking you to send me home is it that hard? 

I don't know what's your brain?? 

Now, I don't feel like talking to you, I don't wanna think, cause I don't know what I should do.

You love me, I know you do! But you are always taking me for granted, not appreciating me?

You told me you appreciate me. I don't see it!

You said things will work out fine, I don't know!

You told me to trust you! I'm not sure if i can do it again!

You don't complain, you hand things to faith. 

You know I'm leaving yet you still come back to me, you are betting.

You know I might leave you, you know that's the possibility that I will look for someone better!

Yet, you still betting !

I know how much afford you put on. I really feel the love here.

But, isn't that consider not enough? The thing I really need from you!

I don't know how to ask it from you.

Don't make me feel insecure! You are tired trying to secure me?

Or I'm asking too much?

Commitment!

The differences between guy and girl towards the prospect of COMMITMENT!

Some guys are selfish! AGREE PEOPLE?

They will only care about themselves. Not the other!

Not their gf's family, not their gf's friend, not their own friend, not their family either!

That's the way how they being brought up!

Guess mostly all girls are not like that are they?

They are feminine, they are caring animal in the earth!

They care about others, the family, the friends, the bf, the bf's family and the bf's friend!

But if this kind of guy and girl are together, will it be like a big contrast?

ONE is caring, ONE isn't! then? They fight! They can't communicate!

You don't talk, cause you don't know what to talk!

You scare when you talk, you will speak something bad!

I want to talk, cause if not I don't know what's in your mind!

Am I being too pushy? I think I am!

I am afraid of losing you!

I don't know why am I being so pushy? Scare things left out too long, feeling will go!

That is silly isn't? You worth nothing for me to love!

Pointing out your weakness is the easiest thing in the world!

If to say about your good one, limited !

Love is blind?

That is true isn't?

I have this feeling that I will break down in the future! because of you baby!

Loving you is the hardest thing in the world!

Loving someone that he will just love him self is the most challenging thing!

Loving someone that will never care about you is suffering!

I don't know how much do you care about me! I will never feel enough! Cause there are problems that we will somehow fight in the future!

I'm not sure am I mature enough!

I'm not sure are we mature enough!

I don't know will we break up in the future if one of us are fed up with each other!?!?

I don't know how are we gonna hold this on!

I love you!But I'm not sure I can love you for the rest of my life! 

Too much to worry about!

Too much to concern about!

Do we click?

I wonder!

Mental problem?

Am I thinking a lil too much?? 

I am getting crazy for thinking pessimistic!

He is nothing, he is not caring! He is not helping. 

Why I still want to behave like nothing in order not to lose him?

He don't show any concern, he don't show that he cares!

Why I still want to call him and act like I am good to him?

I suppose! We are not good? 

He don't call, he don't talk, he act cool!

Why I can take it still? I will get crazy won't me?

We have no future, I knew it! Cause, the way we deal things, way too many problems!

Someday in the future, I will break down, I will never care about it anymore!

He sense nothing? He don't know anything?

He didn't want to know anything!getting fed up!

He says he will do things for me! But he didn't!

He says he will never hung up my call, but he did!

He says reason to hang it up is to avoid something bad coming from his mouth, reasonable?!I suppose!

He stop talking about it when he can't think about it any more!

He avoid the conversation! He is too selfish!

He is protecting himself too much!

He don't know what is love!

He is not lovely !

He don't know how to love!

He is way too many problemS!!!!!Who cares?

Who give a fuck?

I don't feel good not good not good!!!!!!

Hide myself in a box! 

Alienated from the world! From everyone! Why am I so pessimistic??!??

FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!