Dear Sun Siew Din,
Hello babe. It's been a long time huh? It's like forever. 8 months without each other, going our on way, doing our own stuffs, dealing with our feelings and emotions, trying to be tough and keep on looking forward. I have been thinking. For a very long time, really long time until I choose to meet you. Actually, I have no reason not to meet you; I want to meet you for so long. Every time I am out somewhere, how much I wish I will just bump into you and say hi; and that never happen before.
Anyway, back to business. Read the book. How can I connect the book with what I have in mind? 8 months to go, right? The time is short. That's how I will put it. The book, "An hour to live, an hour to love". If I have one more hour to live, what would I say? And to who? I suppose that is how I would live with you for the whole time. Live it like there is no tomorrow, how's that? I guess it would be just the thing. You have made me realize something. I love you and that will never change. You have let me know that I already did survive without you and we still have the feeling for each other. I know 2 years is just a blink. And I don't know why I believed myself that I can't be far away from you. I just don't want to accept the fact that I can live my life too without you; of course, it will be less life here for me.
Sweetie, if I can say anything right now, I will tell you that I am sorry. Sorry for the things that I have done. Sorry that you have to go through so many things. Sorry that I am so stubborn and never have realized how sweet and lovely you are when you are with me and to realize it when you are not here. Sorry that I have failed you and never kept what I have said. Sorry that I never put you first in my priority list and never bother what is troubling you. Sorry that I never gives my best to you and always keep on complaining. Sorry that I never listened to you and appreciate you all the time. Sorry that I have hurt you and never loved you enough. Sorry that I have abandoned you. Sorry that I never learn to appreciate you. Please forgive me for all the things I have done.
I am afraid that you will regret being with me again. Do you really want me? Because I do and it's my pleasure to have you by my side, u know that? I love you. And, I am sorry for giving you this right now. Sorry. And good luck for your exam.
Love,
Alan.