empty soul part one!

enough enough enough! what am i actually thinking? be so firm to send u that msg, asking you to go far away. now hoping you to come back to me. but i did silly things that what you so call:betrayed you! I don't mean to do that, but is already happened. If you look it from the other perspective, it is nothing isn't? But i know you keep your own principal. You don't like ppl to betray you, once he/ she did, she is gone! Especially me? I am sorry. I really hope i can turn back time to love you again. I really thinking about you everyday! I hope i need not to leave to us, so that i will be brave enough to talk to u right now! But now. i don't . I'm afraid to find you, and i don't know what i can say. beside sorry? and? sorry! If i need not to leave, maybe i will just approach to you, blah everything i wanna blah! and do whatever that can make you stay! you don't reply me, you don't give me a damn! guess you are so fucking hate me now! You don't even tell me that you hate me, that is the worst among the worst! it makes me feel bad deep down my heart!
To lim chee hou! Are we in love? i don't feel any love! My whole mind is about alan, and i can't say words that i used to say when i am with a bf! merajuk thingy! probably is because your birthday tomorrow, so i don't wanna say words that keep we both feel annoying. after you birthday, guess i need to be honest! to you, that i need to stay single for now! my mind can't stop thinking about him, and it is so unfair to you. you will be like substitution to his presence. every of my bf will be his substutution! oh gosh! I really need him badly?