Am I fucked?I don't know how to describe these feeling when being with you.It doesn't give me this heart pumping fast feeling.I don't feel like I'm in love.But i don't know why I will just go with u.Partly reason is because i am afraid to love again?i am leaving?I don't....Or i am not wishing to commit with anyone else.And seriously you don't give me this feeling of....u know, that kinda feeling!Like alan gave me.Am i comparing?I hope I am not...Maybe I not yet get rid of alan, or maybe i am searching for another alan?
I don't know I don't know, there are a lot question marks on my head!And I don't know how to let you know if i wanna choose to give up.It seems so unfair to u, but I don't feel though to lie to u if i have tried hard to love u, but just cant!You are good, caring, innocent, smart!Haha!Just, too concern about me ~~I can't take it!