Busy Busy Busy?

Ooo,this will be the first post I've ever posted after the new beginning of my life, the so call college life. It is really screwing me up. Although is just the second week, I started to feel the scenario I've gone through in my form 6 life. Getting stress, where I feel that I can't really pay 100% full attention in class, which led to- I need to spend more time study on my own, and this really giving me too much, as I do hope I can do very good, not just pass and bye. Scholarship, that is my target!! Don't burden family too much! But somehow, I hope I don't make a wrong step taking 3 subjects here, the time table is pack, the assignment is a lot. Coming Coming Coming!!! Oh gosh!Please don't put me down!

Last few days, I realised something, about Jie and the 3 in US. She was so excited to talk to them, but compare to me, I am far more left behind, She will spend time chatting with them without saying tired, but I will spend time saying:" ok lah, stop here!" Look!! It is just so different, which I can see that, I am not close with them at all. What makes the different? Age? Or distance? Or times we used to spend together were different? When she asked:"why you have nothing to say with them?"and I wish I could answer I have!I just don't know why!