Getting use to be single...

Getting use to this new life, the single me, everyday. I was in a very good mood to write a blog last night, but time doesn't allowed me. But right now, my mind is just blank. I can't recall what I wanted to say.

It is not easy to stand up, I was all the while doing very good, till that day I message this jerk, concern about the earthquake?That is so so so ACTING??No, I am just concerning, I hope I am not doing too over.Is just an email. But I start thinking of him, thinking things not related to any "getting back" together issues. My heart is gone!For everyone, not even for myself. And I didn't aspect I will see Keith and roy, they have gave me a shocked. They brought back those memories. I was just thinking, I will just hang out with them whenever he is around, and now, I feel so different where I can't hang out with them, if I did, I will feel weird. Cause he is not there.

I should have my own network, my own friends. Where all these people? Staying in INTI almost 3 weeks, I don't really click with anyone. That makes me feel like I am alienated. I guess part of the reason is because I don't mix around. And I could hardly mix around also. Where is the real SUN SIEW DIN anyway? Now becoming so anti-social.Tired of meeting new people?Tired making new friends?Dur.....Where are those same channel people?I just don't click.They are active in school society, which I will think that are all wasting time programs. I hope this will be just the first semester syndrome,I will get along with new friends better in some day. I guess I can....And please, I don't know why I giving myself so many stress now, I am not kia shu, I am not fighting with anyone. I making all these as my goal, and I hope I can hit my goal. Please Please Please!!!YOU THINK YOU CAN,YOU CAN!!!!

Changing new hair styles because some one said you looked old?Damn it!!!I need self confident, which I think I do not have it~Making me keep comparing with others, and I just can't stop looking at them, and looking back at me myself.

Getting use to be single, in relationship of course, even in myself....from friends!